After my video – My Final Warning for September 2015 – The Age of Information, I’ve been getting an overwhelming response from people worldwide asking about my personal & spiritual journey as a prepper. Many were curious about what exactly happened between the time period of when I was raised Roman Catholic, to falling away from the church and becoming an agnostic/theist, and then coming back around to Christ (albeit, not through the Roman Catholic church). I would guess that people find it interesting that I started with a very secular prepper-focused blog and somehow started shifting more towards faith. The answer is quite simple…I’m a Truth Seeker.
So, I apologize as this article is longer that what I typically write. However, I think my story might be very important for some. If you have an uneasiness about today’s world, if you think this world’s been lying to you, if you have been prepping or thought about prepping, you might find that my story resonates with your own.
Nothing Happens By Accident…
“Religion” & My Falling Away
This story began quite a long time ago. At age 7, I distinctly remember talking with my childhood friends about how I did not feel like this life would be like that of our parents. I do not remember the context of the situation that led to that statement, nor how the conversation ended. I only remember having that distinct feeling, and thinking that it was such an odd conversation for a 7 year old to be having. However, remembrance of that event comes full circle to where I am today.
I was raised Roman Catholic and all my schools from pre-school to college have been Catholic. Many times, I would tell my family there is no passion in Catholic masses. Most parishioners were of older generations (no offense), many would be falling asleep, no one sings, the priest did not seem to connect with his members, etc. Every Sunday, it felt very belaboring, overly prescribed, and at times…occultist. I always wondered how other churches (like “Southern Baptists”) seemed so excited during mass and full of energy while we did not. Unfortunately, my schools did not teach me about the differences between Christian denominations. If I had known that others way before my time had found the same corruption and disenchantment (e.g. – , Martin Luther and the Protestant Reformation), I would have likely come back to faith much quicker.
As I was so disenchanted with the church, I stopped going when I was in college. This was fueled partially because well…I was in college doing stupid college kid things. But also because many of the teachers (particularly the philosophers) in this so called “Catholic college” were very liberal and exposed how the Catholic Church was wrought with paganism. They had very compelling arguments about how the bible was copied from other sources, how architecture and practices of the Catholic Church originated in pagan beliefs, etc. Even today, I do believe there was some truth in what they told (although there were also lies and misunderstandings). However, I believe the corruption that they spoke of was due to the flaws of man meddling with divine work and not the original creation of a fallacy.
This was the pause in my faith and I considered myself more of an agnostic/theist. The faith story comes back into the picture several years later as I describe towards the end of this story.
Truth Seeker & Prepper
The “terrorist” events in America on 9/11 was something that brought me out of adolescence and into the real world. I consider this event to be the start of my truth seeking. Almost every day, I was watching American main stream news for what was happening. It was only until I started doing some exploration online that I started to distrust the narrative that mainstream media was telling me and start to become a prepper.
I started to research 9/11 through various alternative news outlets on the internet and came to the conclusion that it was not some random attack by terrorists, but a carefully constructed event by elitists in our government to further an agenda. If you have not read into this, I suggest you read up on how World Trade Center Building #7 (not impacted by any plane or collapsing building) collapsed in free fall on top of itself – something that only happens when a building has a calculated demolition. If you can disprove the narrative for this building, the other buildings comes into question as well.
If I could find proof that our own government would do something as heinous as this, what other lies was I being told? As I researched more and more, I found that I was living in a world of lies… I felt that there was a definitive need to become a prepper to provide for my family because something horrible was on the horizon.
Our Money Generation is Corrupt
If you don’t know how money is created, you need to watch this video. It will explain how our money system is a fraud and used to extract wealth from every day people. It was designed this way and not by accident. When I found truth in what our money system really is, I found out that is a work of pure evil. It is this evil and corrupted money system which inherently funds corruption in all the other sectors below.
World Governments are Corrupt
This one does not even need much explanation. Governments have always been corrupt. However, in today’s world, American politicians are completely lawless. I call it, the Anarchy Governance Paradox. The elite work outside of governance as the laws do not apply to them, however they will certainly enforce unconstitutional laws on the people. I think many would agree with me today that world governments (especially in the US) are more dysfunctional than we’ve ever known them to be.
Our Health Care is corrupt
I believe medical advancements can be very beneficial to people. However, I think the number of people hurt by medicine (prescription medicine death, side effects, addiction, etc.) may be disproportionate to those that it helps. Our medical system is becoming one that is more for corporate profit, and less for the actual healthcare of the individual.
Our Food System is Corrupt
No matter which aspect of food that you look at (generation, processing, distribution, marketing, etc.), there is corruption and lies. Many will say these are necessary evils based on necessity to feed a large population, but I disagree. Animals are heavily abused in terrible living conditions before slaughter; hormones, antibiotics, pesticides, GMOs and other chemicals taint our food. Market advertising and low wages have us hooked on sugar packed foods that are making the country obese. We wonder why we have so many medical conditions and illnesses. Probably because of what we eat…
Entertainment is Corrupt
If you look at the landscape of entertainment, whether it be movies, television, music, etc, there is an overwhelming “dark” trend. It may not always be readily apparent in the “pop” nature of much of our music, but if you pay close attention to the lyrics and symbolism, you’ll find that they focus on self-pleasure and hedonism. A simple internet search of “Illuminati in the entertainment industry” will yield mind boggle proof of how we are delivered subliminal cues of accepting immoral values.
Society has been corrupted
At this point, I might sound like a grumpy old man that is not hip to the times and wishing for the good ol’ days to come back. Indeed, with my explanations of corruption across all those different sectors above, you might think that I just hate the world. However, if you’re like me, you have a palpable and inherent feeling that things are not right in the world. Something is definitely wrong. I think this is the reason most people start to become a prepper.
All the corruption from the above mentioned sectors as well as several others that are not mentioned have influence society greatly. It is now the fabric of society that has fallen. In some areas of the US, we abort more babies than are actually born and we call it “Choice”. We leave our children with strangers for ¾ of our waking hours and call it “woman’s right to work” (in addition to the necessity to survive on low wages caused by our corrupted money system). I think Bob Russel who did a prayer breakfast in KY continues my thought best:
We know your Word says, “Woe to those who call evil good,” but that’s exactly what we’ve done.
We have lost our spiritual equilibrium and inverted our values.
We confess that we have ridiculed the absolute truth of your Word and called it moral pluralism.
We have worshipped other gods and called it multiculturalism.
We have endorsed perversion and called it an alternative lifestyle.
We have exploited the poor and called it the lottery.
We have neglected the needy and called it self-preservation.
We have rewarded laziness and called it welfare.
We have killed our unborn and called it choice.
We have shot abortionists and called it justifiable.
We have neglected to discipline our children and called it building esteem.
We have abused power and called it political savvy.
We have coveted our neighbors’ possessions and called it ambition.
We have polluted the air with profanity and pornography and called it freedom of expression.
We have ridiculed the time-honored values of our forefathers and called it enlightenment.
I wish I could upload all of my thoughts, research and conclusions into a 7 minute video or 1 pager blog article! When I tell you with honesty that I’ve done my homework and have had countless hours of research, trust me. If you don’t believe me, I’m sure my wife would be happy to tell you that I spend way too much of my time on this prepper stuff.
Now, I understand that what I say above may be completely foreign to some individuals and I wish I could substantiate with news articles, books and other material. However, I know that this is not possible as I want to keep as focused as possible. I can only hope that the inherent feelings you have in your heart are sufficient to convince you that we live in extraordinary times.
The First Shepherd
Between 9/11/2001 and 2007, I was a prepper seeking truth as I explained above, but I was not necessarily “hardcore” about it. This was a period of my life where I had so many new things going on – college, first job, girlfriend, etc. However, when I switched jobs in 2007, I was paired up with a co-worker who had been on the same truth seeking journey I was. I’m not sure how we initiated the conversation into the whole “taboo conspiracy” realm, but we hit it off. Finally, I had someone to talk to and felt validated in our conversations. It was at this time that I started hardcore prepping. I stockpiled all sorts of necessities, started one of the largest preparedness networks in South West Ohio, and started the On Point Preparedness blog.
This co-worker also started introducing me to more esoteric / religious conspiracy. I don’t want to dwell on this topic much, but the things we talked about are definitely not topics of conversation at your normal every day church. It includes things like CERN & Dimensions, exo-politics and how aliens fit into religion, etc. Without having some foreknowledge, these topics seem ridiculous and you might say that their only home belongs on BeforeItsNews.com. However, I feel I’m a pretty rationale and balanced guy. In my research and truth seeking, I can honestly say that there is a spiritual/inter-dimensional war going on that could almost be considered science fiction.
Think about it this way…what Christian would discredit theories of different dimensions and this whole esoteric realm? If you’re a true believe, you believe that there is a God who exists in a different dimension outside of time. He created the heavens, earth and entire universe. He sent his Son into our world, defied physics through a virgin birth, performed miracles, died and resurrected body and soul. You believe that, but you are not willing to believe that aliens might be Satan’s fallen race, and that CERN might be a portal to open up a dimension that will open up the bottomless pit as explained in revelation? Hmm…..interesting.
The Second Shepherd
I took another job at the same company in 2010. And wouldn’t you know that the cube mate I’m paired up with is completely open to much of what the first Shepherd and I talked about? Make no mistake, thinking the economy and world is going to collapse is a conspiratorial subject. Only about 1-3% of the population identifies as preppers and the larger population calls them crazy conspiracy theorists. However, I am somehow paired up with two individuals back to back that are open to dialogue about all these subjects and are in fact preparing themselves. Coincidence? I think not.
This individual was much more focused on faith and salvation in our discussions. He knew that I was on a journey of truth and had exploited all the lies of the current world. However, he wanted to ensure I knew the main Truth – Christ. In our talks about the economy, society, prepping, etc., he was always sure to bring up Christ. It’s all these discussions as well as my own personal journey that led me to contemplate more and more on faith and what it meant to me..
As I discussed in my video that I mentioned in the first paragraph, we live in an age of information overload. When it comes to accepting Christ and being faithful, there is no amount of research that can help sway your decision to accept him or not. It all comes down to…well….faith.
One day, on my lunch hour, I took a walk alone in a park. As I said in my video, I cancelled out the external noise of this world, cleared my head, and submitted to God that I did not or would not know everything of this world. I asked for a message, and I think I received one.
I didn’t hear a voice in my head or get some grand prophetic message delivered before me. However, I got a subtle message through my subconscious and I believe it was God.
The message was – You’re over thinking things
In fact, the bible says:
1 At the same time came the disciples unto Jesus, saying, Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?2 And Jesus called a little child unto him, and set him in the midst of them,3 And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.4 Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.5 And whoso shall receive one such little child in my name receiveth me.
At that point, I thought to myself.
“If I jumped in front of a speeding car to push my family out of the way and died in the process, would anyone think ill of me?” I cannot imagine anyone saying that I was doing this for fame, or that I was suicidal, etc. Unanimously, I think people would look upon that act as an act of true love.
Jesus was a real person. That is undeniable. He came with a message saying he was the ultimate sacrifice to atone for our sins. He willingly put himself up for torture and died on the cross for his children. Why do we have such a hard time believing this act when we would willfully accept a more current world application of a father’s sacrifice jumping in front of a car?
Thinking about this analogy in the park, a sense of happiness and peace came over me. I actually let out a little bit of laughter, much like the kind you let out after you’ve averted some kind of disaster and have to laugh about it.
People may say that Jesus was a kind man, but a crazy man who was delusional into thinking he was The Christ. How could multiple sources of scripture come together as what we know of as “The Bible” over a crazy man? How could a large majority of the world turn to Christ if he was simply a crazy man? Why would Christians persecuted worldwide over the teachings of a simple crazy man?
That doesn’t sound quite right does it?
What does sound right is that Jesus spoke nothing but truth while he was here. His prophetic messages that he spoke of are coming true in THIS GENERATION. Satan and evil forces hate his message and therefore persecute him and those that follow. That my friends sounds a lot more like truth to me than anything else.
God gave me a brain and two hands to understand the signs and to prepare for them. I will do that to the best of my ability. However, in the end, the only thing that we have true control over is our free will to accept Christ as our savior, or not.
How will you decide?